Chris Brown- See You Around
Beyoncé leaving Eiffel Tower in Paris, France (Sept. 15th)
sooo fucking good!!
beyonces speaking voice is deep and powerful too like i feel like if she were to call me a mothafucka it would resonate down my entire ancestral line and make my first ever primitive ancestor collaspe and erase my entire family tree
I took a photo every 2 minutes over the span of about 2 hours at a 20 second exposure and animated it all together! This 2 second loop was the result!
Craters of the Moon National Monument, Idaho
holy fuck you can actually see how the earth turns by paying attention to the stars
this fucks me the fuck up
Embrace the goal.
— Jim Henson (via cosmofilius)
The amount of people who have told me ‘Life is not worth living,” or “What’s the point?” this week. It’s actually scaring me. Scares me even more when I realise how easy it is for them to fall into such a trap and do it. I know that feeling all too well unfortunately, although my resistance for such things is stronger than ever now, it wasn’t once upon a time.
I’m not used to feeling so weak, because I’m not. I know i’m not. But I don’t know what on earth has happened this week. Everything is going wrong, everyone I care about is going through something horrible and I don’t know what to do anymore. Don’t care about myself in the slightest, that’s not the point here but my shit is so insignificant and temporary when compared to such things which are significant and permanent. I don’t matter right now, and i’m fine with that because that’s just the way I am. I feel like I need to be in 12343 different places at once and I wish I could be. I don’t like seeing people having to deal with things on their own because I know that feeling too well and it just gets worse.
I made a decision the other day. Its the hardest thing for me, being who I am, to open up and tell people about my past. If I do tell you, it’s because I finally trust you enough not to judge me and i know you’ll be someone who wouldn’t allow me to ever revert back to that stage. Every single time i’ve told one of my closest friends about everything, they’ve always ended up crying when they find out certain things, and that enough is hard for me to deal with because I did that. It’s always a case of, “Why are you crying? Please stop,” - I just hate the thought of burdening people, it’s better left unsaid.
I hate the feeling that that might not be enough anymore, i’m too stubborn for my own good. I feel i need to do what i said i’d never do (even when I was told) and go for counselling to finally put an end to all of this. Because I don’t think I can bear this anymore. I want this to end. Everytime something bad happens I can’t fall back into this behaviour. I just wish it was something I could control. I’m so frustrated with everything right now I just feel like disappearing to a place where everything is peaceful, and free from all of this pain, grief, hurt and anger.
Just going to continue to ask for strength…. Allah always knows best.
Always humbles me how my friends or family have more belief in me than I do. 💜